Cannot find "Front Page"

Perhaps I deleted it. I want my posts to be on the front page. When I write one, it appears on a front page. However, it is not listed on my page list so I can’t edit it. Nor is on my menu. I have made a home page but can only comment, not make original posts. I can remake the front page like I have my home page, but it doesn’t exist in the dashboard! In the settings, I can’t make any changes because front page doesn’t exist in the drop down menu either. How can I regain access to what I want to post?